doode. when was the last time i updated? back in october mangg. my senior year is already more than half goneee.
only 3 more months of school left. where has the time gonee?
so a lot of things has happen. & i kid yu not when i say a lot. i
don't noee...this use to be my notebook & it was how i expressed
myself. i don't noe when i stopped but i feel like i needa comee back.
i need to let go of everythingg.
so. first thing first.
i am the most fickle person you can ever meet. & i admit it. i
don't noe what i want. i like to experiment and try new things. &
that applies to love. can i even call it that? so, my heart wouldnt let
me settle down. i have to be up & about. just when i thot i've
found the right guy...it just didn't work out despite our history
together. so i had to let that go. i noe i hurted him but i can't force
the situation. i noe saying i'm sorry won't change anything but instead
if i have the chance i would want to tell him 'thank you'. for what he
has shown me and made me realize. too bad our friendship was on the
line for this & things will never be the same.
so far so goood. i learned & realized so many things. it's just not
the same no more with me and everyone else. it's not a bad thing
because then when it's time to go, i can honestly tell myself it's been
wonderful & i noe we'll always be here for each other. it's nothing
to be sad about really. we're all grown up now. it's that natural
process i've been told about.
turning 18, christmas, new friends, getting my car, breaking free from
my parents, nearing the end of my internship. i can go on. i have
absolutely no regrets; just things that i couldn't have done better. i
have a lot of fun & more is on the way. i wanna make the best of my
last high school year.
a little rift here & there but heyy that's life.
no matter how old i get there's always that one thing that can makee my head spin a little. lol.
so, this thing happened with this person that i would have never
thought in a million years would happen. she told me that...things
happen for a reason. & i guess the bringing of uss together
happened for a reason right? good or bad i'll take it.
truth be told, i'm not expecting much. butt...this feeelin makes me
feeel like a freshmen agen. this little crush of mine. gettin mad over
little things. confused about the big things. mix signals &
hesitation. smiles of the text messages and conversations.
he drives me nuts actually.
one minutee, everything is about me. then it seems likee it's not like
that. i try to pull myself away but he picks just the right time to say
something or do something. it's really silly. thats why i feel like a
kid agen. just those little things that makes me smile yu noe? i needa
to update more. for myself.
i've noticed nobody uses this anymoree. maybe that's why it's sucha sanctuary for bloggers :]
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